I have gotten through a tough Christmas..yes probably the most difficult of my life so far.  You do not ever think of a time especially a holiday without those you love, but they come....and yes they go.  We dread them because they make us relive the wonderful memories, the times we have shared with those we miss.  Why dread?  Because the reality hits that we will not ever make new memories with them again.  It is difficult. We know that when the day comes each second, each minute each hour we are reminded of the happiness we had ... the past, with them. I know in my heart that we should remember, appreciate and be thankful for the time we had, but it doesn't make it any easier.  For me, the New Year is most trying this time.  No matter where I have been, my enitire life, until this day, on New Years Day at midnight exactly I was either with on the phone with the greatest person I have ever known...my Mom.  My kiss and hers would be the first for each ...either on the cheek or into the phone!  I miss her so very much.  Next would be Dad, and his calming voice took away any fear, any anxiety I had.  He was my protection, my shield, my savior.  I love you both with all of my heart and hope you are happy wherever you are. 

Love Debbie